Hi everyone, for those of you who I haven't talked to in a while, I just got married to Donna Cole, now Donna Donati. I met her in January of '04, she needed a ride to school, and lived in my area.  We got to know each other more and more and fell in love... She is wonderful, and she has a little boy named Tony who I am now the father of.  This is a kid you can't not love... Some of you probably know we were living together before marriage, its a long story, coming home from Teen Mania, I had a lot of struggles, mentally... With me, I associated the feelings of culture shock after leaving Teen Mania, with my relationship with God.  I felt that my relationship with God was dependant upon my thoughts and feelings, and when those were gone, I questioned myself, and believed that my experiences weren't real.  What's amazing is that even as I was ignoring God in my life, He was still speaking to me and loving me in that time.  He is so full of love and grace, I never want to leave His side, no matter what comes against me, whether I feel Him, or not,I know He is there and that He loves me as His own.  I have learned a lot through this time, I have acted as a father and husband, and have realized God's love for us as His children, the way He disciplines us and cares for us, as well as His love for us as His bride.  He loves us when we are at our lowest, accepts us as we are and takes us to a higher level.  God doesn't tell us "I'll accept you if you do this" He says, "I accept you, and because I love you, I want you to be like My Son" Anyway, I have a lot to say, and its not going to come out in just one of these, and you're probably glad because this is long enough already...  I was always so afraid of being the prodigal son, of falling away from God, and it happened... Maybe if I wasn't so afraid it wouldn't have happened.  Reality is never as bad as the fear of it.  God help me to face reality with a smile on my face. 

Perfect love cast out all fear, he who fears has not been perfected in love.